I can fly!!!

Kris- Haha, yea that pretty much says it all.

Gracie- Yea.  I gotta tell ya, I am sooo happy I can fly and you can’t.

Kris- Haha, yea, funny considering I’m afraid to fly.

Gracie- Well I’d be afraid you’d hurt yourself. I mean you better not go jumping off any buildings or anything or build wings of wax and get too close to the sun.

Kris- You just think you’re so funny, don’t you??

Gracie- Yea sometimes I do 😛

Kris- I hate flying in ‘planes’… brat!

Gracie- Ahhhhh, well, I’m not. In fact I am actually a pilot.

Kris- Yea, yea, I know. You have overcome a lot of fears haven’t you? Maybe I should take pilot lessons?

Gracie- Hmmmm, baby steps, I think. First you need to be able to eat whatever you want. You need to overcome other fears.

Kris- yea, I know. I realized as I’ve gotten older I am more afraid. I don’t know why that is. I used to be fearless or somewhat fearless. Well more fearless than I am now.

Gracie- Well you flew to Europe didn’t you? I mean that is huge.

Kris- Yes it is. I was proud of myself. But it was something I really wanted to do. I needed to do it. I had to do it. Actually it was an escape at the time. Just like Second Life was/is.

Gracie- Do you still think Second Life is an escape?

Kris- Well no, not as much. I don’t come into Second Life, to get away from real life anymore like I did. Now I come in because of art and my friends. Well, ok, thinking about it, I do come inworld sometimes as a way to escape my feelings. Although, I am realizing, that there is really no escape even in Second Life. You feel what I feel. When I am lonely, you are lonely.

Gracie- Yes, I know. I hate that. Why is that? Why are you ok we, so lonely?

Kris- I don’t know. That is a great question. I think that is what I am trying to find out. That is a path I need to explore on this journey of finding myself. Maybe I have been alone way too long? Maybe it has to do with my self esteem and self confidence? Maybe I was just meant to be alone? I don’t know.

Gracie- Hmmmm, well at least you are aware of it. That’s a start. It is something to think about. Aren’t you going to get into Yoga? That will help you on this journey.

Kris- Yea, I am going tomorrow to a place not too far away from  me. I’m gonna talk to them about maybe working for them a few hours a week in exchange for taking yoga classes. I think it would be really beneficial for me in all respects.

Gracie- Yea I think it’s a great idea. What else are you working on?

Kris- Well, I am finishing putting together a 5 year professional development plan for my life.

Gracie- Wow, no wonder you have been depressed lately…geesh!!!

Kris- Yea I know. I think this is part of it. I mean honestly, I don’t know what is going to happen in 5 years time.

Gracie- Well no one does. But at least you are trying to figure it out so you have some ideas.

Kris- Yea.

Gracie- So what are you thinking?

Kris- Well, I am looking at teaching again, artist residencies and the MFA program.

Gracie- WOW, that is a lot to think about. I think you should totally go back to teaching. I will help you however I can. In fact, I think we should work on lecturing in Second Life too. We had a great time talking about your project the other day.

Kris- Yea, I know. I have thought of that. But have no idea where to begin on getting into that. I think that is where I’m stuck on a lot of stuff. Where to begin. It’s so daunting.

Gracie- Yea, but the end result will totally be worth it.

Kris- Yea, I know. I will have a more fulfilling life, that’s for sure. That’s what I want. What I yearn for.

Gracie- Yea, I know. Even I yearn for that.

Kris- Yea, funny, I have realized your life isn’t any more perfect than mine.

Gracie- You’re just realizing this??? Geezzzzz

Kris- yea, I should have known. I mean when we do something ditzy, all our friends laugh and call it “pulling a Gracie.”

Gracie- Yea yea yea. I don’t know if ditzy is the same as not being perfect.

Kris- Ok true. Ok off to finish some stuff. Thanks for the chat.

Gracie- Sure, anytime 😛