Many of you know that I have an alter ego, Gracie Kendal. (Ok, if you didn’t know, you do now!) Over the past 6 years she has been a huge part of my life. She entered my life when I was struggling and suffocating. With her help, I finished my Masters degree (In fact it was about her) and have become the woman I am today. I have also started to tell Gracie’s story through art in the way of performance, photos and painting. If you are curious about Gracie, you can read more about here in past blog entries over the last couple of years and check out the New Media and comics portion of the site too.
When Gracie first came to ‘life’ she was my ideal self. Tall, thin, long blond hair. She was the person I wanted to be. Less shy, more sassy, successful in art, dated A LOT, etc etc. A few months ago, I changed her appearance for the first time. Her human self disappeared and she was left with the skin of one of my paintings.
For reasons I can’t even explain here and don’t even know myself, today I had the sudden urge to change her back to a recognizable human form. I will be writing more about this as I come to understand why this change had to occur. I have had a lot going on lately. Maybe it is a self confidence thing. Maybe I needed to feel ‘real’ again. I know I know, that may not make sense to you, but it does to me. Maybe I needed my friend back. As a ‘painted lady’ she became an art object rather than a psychic part of me. While she has always been a part of me, she is also my art. Of course as an artist, my life is art. Hmmm I’m rambling… LOL
For now, Welcome Back Gracie!!
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