Well I cheated.
I guess it depends on what your definition of cheating is. And if It really is cheating since it is my project in the first place. Isn’t there a quote that says something like “I am an artist, so I don’t have to follow the rules?” I am pretty sure there is.
Well, I had to break the rules. If there were even rules.
I had this urge, this impulse, this nagging need to go ahead and delete, a week early, the entire 15000 prims that I had rezzed 2 weeks ago. I really needed to rez the next 15000 prims. I couldn’t wait a week. I couldn’t wait for Fuschia to film it, or for an audience to be there. I just had to do it. And I had to do it quietly. I logged into Second Life and within a few minutes deleted everything. The items that were rezzed on the LEA16 sim went into my trash can in my inventory. Then, yep I emptied the trash. All gone. I have to tell you, I did it rather fast. I selected as many prims as I could and with a couple clicks, hit delete on my keyboard. I didn’t take it slow and go over each item, reminiscing, etc. Just like ripping off a band-aid really fast so the pain doesn’t linger, I got rid of everything that was rezzed. And yes, if there was pain, it didn’t linger.
All I do know is that I have to do it. I have to delete my whole inventory because I know it is important. Whether it is just important to me, or to virtual worlds, or to the art community I can’t say.
It took me about 6ish hours to delete 15000 prims and rez another 15000. My back was hurting, my wrists were sore and my legs were cramping. I took one break in between but had to go on. I get like this. I get an idea in my head. I get motivated to do something profound and I just do it. I deal with the consequences of my actions later. Or maybe I don’t.
So, this is what I created, while rezzing those 15000 prims…
Ok and this…
But… I absolutely adore this…
I forgot she was in my inventory. I forgot I had this amazingly beautiful woman asleep in the depths of my inventory. She gives me hope and life.
And yes, she will be deleted, but for now, for this moment in time, I can revel in her beauty and draw inspiration from this Grand Odalisque.
If you would like to visit my installation “Binge and Purge” follow the link…